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Martyr Phase

Another chapter in the book of my life is coming to an end.

The Martyr Phase is the phase in your life (well, in mine) where you literally let everyone walk all over you. You may rationalize this to yourself by saying – “oh, I’m just being nice” or “I can’t do that! Good girls don’t act like that”.

To which I now say: Fuck That.
Seriously.

I was speaking to Mid Sis about this very thing last week. She has this same behavioral trait and we cannot figure out where we got it from. Our parents didn’t teach us that (they were of the “take no prisoners and do what is best for you” variety of parents). And we really don’t exhibit this sterling quality with anyone except the male of our species. Why? Is it insecurity? Do we really think we cannot do better and so have to put up with whatever crap is dished our way? Do we truly hold ourselves at such a low value?

It actually feels good to burn bridges. Send them sky high with large doses of flammable material, shooting up into the heavens. You should try it sometime. Quite lovely, actually.

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